sometimes alone more good?

sometimes being alone doesn't really affect me or at least I think I tell myself it doesn't lol. Sometimes knowing I'm alone is one of the worst feelings imaginable. I know that I am a very difficult person to handle so I understand why I am alone a lot of the time. The older I get the more I realize that companionship and knowing someone is always there having my back is important. I hate not having somebody I can just call up and say "hey let's go...." and we get up and go. But I don't let my feelings of loneliness cloud my judgement as to who should and shouldn't be in my life. I rather be my myself than surround myself with all the wrong people.